A Stall In My Journey

I have returned to this blog and it is nostalgic to read my posts as I see confidence, inspiration and ongoing examination. Today has been a tear-filled day. But, also the most enlightening one. On the path that followed my last post, I was introduced to metaphysics and the mind-body-spirit connection. It really ministered to me. It became my truth, for a season. I never abandoned it fully. I still talk to the Universe, asking for what I want and need, finding it always answering as though I was heard. I never had that in Christianity. Now I am making a big step towards a new future and I want to rid myself of some habits, depression and sloth before I get too far into the journey. I am entering a program to write a book on my experiences with a Christian-based cult and how it shattered my concept of God, but more importantly, brought me to a point of insanity. Yes, I have been insane and sane. Because of this cult, 8 years after leaving, I created a self-protection barrier to thoughts of anything spiritual. Today, as I wept, I felt the Universe deliver the thought that it was time to take down the barrier, as it is what keeps me sick, sad, and tired. I am not feeding my spiritual being. So, despite the stall, I return to what worked best for me. Not mainstream psychology who says think positive and you will be well. But, a more scientific approach to our presenting and dormant energies that govern what is drawn towards us. I hope you will join me on this journey.